VENT
Mood: Sad.
Craving: Not hungry.
Hyperfix: OCs, some other stuff maybe.
Hi guys. I'm not in a really bad mood right now but I don't feel well. My mom was upset with me because I asked her to take me to the park while she was busy doing the chores I was supposed to be doing. She had all the right to be angry about it, but it made me feel bad. I feel selfish. I feel like I am selfish. I don't care about what others feel or what others want for me and I feel like a fucking asshole right now. I really love my mom and I really care about her but im really scared that's she dissapointed in me. Her reaction seemed ike bottled up feelings becasuse otherwise she'd never act like that I think. I feel horrible about it and i dont even just want to be a good daughter, I want to be a good person. I always want more but I never really give. Ever. I don't know why. I keep saying im trying im trying all the time but I'm neevr trying but nobody understands how difficult everything is for me. Nobody gets me and its so hard to be understood when nobofdy really understands ro tries to understand or wants to understand its always been like this im sick of it im sick of eveeryhting im tired of everything im tired of this fucking life i just want someone to love me. i want a boyfruend so bad
sorry i dont know why im being so engative.i love myself i lvoe my mom and i lvoe everybody who cares about me but im just so fucking sad and so ffucking selfish but i cant i just i cant
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